Disclaimer: This post, too, ends on a sad note. Sorry.
Sandy
So little Sandy came to live with us there in the convergence of the three schools. As if the lambs hadn’t been enough of a landmark for the passing hoards of kids, a baby foal really drew attention. Luckily for me, the prestige of a baby horse was far greater than baby sheep, especially with the city girls who were generally a horse-crazy bunch.
It took a while for Sandy to understand that the disembodied rubber thing coming at her was a replacement for that nice warm bag under her mother’s belly. It was touch and go for a while as we fiddled with the recipe for her formula, but eventually we all, including Sandy figured things out. I swear kids started leaving for school earlier and earlier in the morning. Their mothers must have wondered what was up. Sandy’s breakfast was what was up. What better way to begin the morning than by watching a foal scarfing down breakfast from a pop bottle with a nipple on it?
Little Sandy turned into a royally spoiled but sweet little girl. I don’t remember how long she lived with us, but certainly long enough to give me a reputation throughout town as the kid with a horse in the yard. We weren’t able to fully replicate mother’s-milk nourishment, so little Sandy remained a little horse, even when fully grown. She was a beautiful little blond with a white blaze and silky, white mane and tail. Eventually she reestablished her equine identity when we took her back out to the ranch on Skyline Drive.
Thumper
Then one day my best friend’s dad came home from a hunting trip with three tiny coyote pups instead of food for the freezer. Terry dashed up the street to ask if we wanted one of the pups!
My mom was agog. Coyote pups don’t belong in town. Why in the world had he raided a coyote den? Those pups needed to be in the wild with their mother. This inexplicable behavior reinforced mom’s belief that the man was nuts. But the fact remained that three little souls had been ripped from their home and would never be able to return. With a sigh, she consented to take one of the pups off his hands.
The little guy was a bundle of fluff about the size of a rat. His little eyes were still partly glued shut, better for him perhaps, to not see what had transpired in his journey to our house in town. Once again, we were bottle feeding, this time with doll-sized bottles, then slowly graduating into canned dog food which he slurped delightedly from a proffered finger. At first he spent a good deal of time in the house. The cats hissed their indignation. The dog mothered him until she had her own pups. He earned his name from his forays behind the couch where the contented thumping of his tail between the sofa and the wall gave away his hiding place.
Raised like a dog, Thumper was loving and generous. When he had something to show me or when he wanted to play, he’d ever-so-gently mouth my arm between wrist and elbow and lead me about the yard. Never once did his teeth break the skin.
As he grew, mother became increasingly concerned about his innate feral tendancies. She worried that the meter reader would leave the gate open and let him out of the yard, or worse yet, be frightened by his presence and hose him down with pepper spray. So we had to stake him out on a long rope. When my sister’s dog, Ebony, had a litter of pups, Thumper watched over them and played with them as if they were his own litter cousins. As the pups grew, they’d wander out to where Thumper was staked in the yard and steal the food right out of his bowl while he looked on, ears pricked and head tilted in an attitude of love and admiration.
Thumper’s dubious fate
The longer he lived with us, the more we loved him and the more his presence troubled us. What to do with Thumper? He needed room to roam. He needed exercise and a pack to hang with. Dear as he was, we were always clear about the fact that he was a wild animal. After much nail-biting and soul-searching my mother finally decided he had to go. She told me that our rancher friends, the Talbots, knew another rancher who lived further out in the boonies than they did and who was willing to take the adolescent coyote off our hands. Supposedly this guy would fling Thumper scraps for a while until he learned how to hunt and hooked up with a pack.
I’ve gotta’ tell you, this story sounded weak to me then. It sounds even weaker to me now. But it is the story I had to believe. I’ve often wondered what really happened to Thumper. Just as I’ve often wondered if Mr. H. who brought the three pups to town, hadn’t shot the mother and then felt guilty about the pups. Either way, his behavior was unforgivable.
A few years ago, I had some old 16mm family film digitized and found footage of Thumper leading me around by the arm. There are images of him sitting at one end of his rope, while puppies tumbled over themselves to get to his food bowl. Mainly there is footage of Thumper endlessly circling the circumference of his rope, wearing out the grass, circling, circling, endlessly circling__a zoo animal penned in too-small an enclosure. My heart breaks. I wonder why we did it. How did my mother justify this? It would probably have been better to kill the little pups than to allow them to come to the end of a rope. This was an episode of the urban zoo that I’m inconsolably ashamed of. Nevertheless, my tiny claim to fame in my home town is that I was the kid who lived in the house that had all the weird critters in the yard.
I remember Thumper! I must have been in Jr. High about then and remember walking by the yard and seeing him.
I’ll betcha 2 bits the back end of the red pick up in the color pix was Dad’s!!!
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Great eye, Glenda! The pickup….yes, perhaps it was your dad’s originally. However, my mom bought that pickup and had the blue stock racks made for it so we could haul horses around in it. At least I’m pretty sure that is the case. I had forgotten…if I ever knew…whom she got the pickup from.
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Great write and lovely pictures, too. Of course, me being a limey, you realise my only contact with a coyote is with a certain cartoon series! I don’t even recall seeing one in London Zoo, but there must’ve been one.
A sad, true story, very well related.
Over here, foxes (which are kind of the coyote’s equivalent) can assimilate well with humans.
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Thanks, my limey friend! Oh, foxes, they do know how to wrap human suckers around their big bushy tails around here too! They love to come begging for food scraps in mountain towns where tourists are likely to be hanging out. I wouldn’t advise having one for a pet, however, or a coyote, or a wolf. No matter how cute and adorable they may be, they are wild animals and should be kept in their native habitat at all costs. That said, when a fox comes begging at my back door at the cabin in the woods, I’m hard pressed to not throw out a scrap or two, thus contributing to wildlife obesity. 😮
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Having a disclaimer is a great idea! I love your writing and the pictures are just so great. I love digging up old photographs…that AREN’T from a digital camera.
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Thanks for the feedback, Nate. I’ve never used disclaimers before, but I see the value. The old images seem like they’re from another person’s life!
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Hey Linda! I just read your childhood mentor post (how the hell did I miss that?!) and couldn’t leave a comment on it because there was no comment box at the bottom. Kind of strange, eh? Beautifully written, as always. Your last paragraph in particular had me in tears.
It’s so amazing how profound our relationships with animals can be. I’m not quite sure why societal consciousness still tends to separate them as somehow “less than” when emotionally that’s so clearly not the case. My deepest relationship with an animal was with a tiny, black and white, pet mouse my older (meaner) brother abandoned. He became the one stable thing I could safely love in a turbulent, confusing world of trauma and disintegrating family relationships. I was twelve when he died and I fell completely apart, crying for three days and unable to go to school or even eat. The little guy actually held my life together during some of the very worst years, just by being there to love. I think for me, he was more of a guardian than a mentor.
Okay. Now, on to your urban zoo posts! I LOVE your writing.
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Well, that is the wierdest thing. I have no clue why the comment form field disappeared from that post. What, is WP gonna limit me to 22 comments? Or whatever? Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I added more photos after the fact, but I don’t understand why that would impact the comments. Oh well. You’re the wise one to work around any obstacle.
I think that children/people who are in particularly difficult situations often relate to animals in a super-charged way. There are all sorts of stories about animals bringing autistic children out of their personal prisons. And service dogs who warn epilectics of an impending seizure. There is something we don’t know about animal sensitivity.I know I’ve yet to grieve over the loss of a human as hard as I’ve grieved over the loss of four-leggeds.
Dia, you absolutly make my day. I feel like a child at the feet of Rembrandt when I think of my writing as compared to yours! Thanks for your extra effort in commenting.
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Another amazing story, Linda. I have a friend that has two wolves – though she’ll deny it for legal purposes. The wolves were rescued. They live amidst her other dogs, and they get along like a nice healthy pack.
We have coyotes here – we hear them often and see them occasionally. I think Wilbur has some coyote in him (which means, Cherokee does, too).
I can see myself trying to rescue a coyote pup. Though, if the only option was to chain it – I’d let it go.
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Yes Lenore, I’ve had lots of time to thing about wild animal adoption. I’ve seen success stories. Had a neighbor with a wolf cross-breed. It was the sweetest dog ever, except for howling when left alone. They are pack critters and don’t do well being shut up in a small house or yard all day while the “pack” is at work. I have come to the belief that wild should stay wild if at all possible. It has taken millions of years to domesticate feline and canine prey animals. To assume that in a few short generations we can have happy, healthy, and safe wolves, coyotes, lions, tigers, skunks, whatever, is (in my ever so unhumble opinion) sheer homo-arrogance. I understand the temptation, especially when they are young. They are so absolutely adorable and cuddly. But they don’t belong in the city. That said, I know stuff happens. Sometimes you just have to do the best you can…even if it means opening your home to a “blended” family. I’m glad your friend’s pack is healthy and happy. They are the lucky ones.
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You know, Linda, we all make well-meaning mistakes at times, and your mother seems a kind enough woman to not purposely hurt an animal. Plus, she eventually made the right decision to let Thumper go, and I for one am so optimistically inclined as to believe the story. Just imagine a happily adjusted and mated Thumper, father and forefather of many coyotes in the area. I know, I am an incurable Disney romantic.
As always, I love your writing and the pictures it conjures up in my head (apart from the real pics of course). Plus, I like the fact that the little foal and I share a name. Although my fur isn’t very blonde 😉
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Sandra, my friend, you are an optimist! Which is a good thing. The world needs more optimists! Knowing Wyoming ranchers as I do, I wish I could share your optimism.
I don’t think you’d look as good as a blond…and thankfully, you don’t have a white mane either! Thanks for stopping by.
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I adore the fact that you and your family brought up a Coyote! Both Thumper and your horse, Sandra, were gorgeous… 🙂
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Val, it was an interesting adventure. I’m glad that I was involved because I learned to love and trust Thumper. But in viewing the home movies of him on his chain, I’m horrified by the entire thing. I’ve had plenty of time to ruminate on the issue of wild vs domesticated animals. I am now a staunch believer that wild should be kept wild at all possible costs. It is unfair to wild animals to expect them to integrate with people the way we expected our domesticated animals to behave. I don’t care how cute and cuddly the babies (or adults) are. If I were to be faced with the same scenario now, I would look for a wildlife rehab specialist who raises orphans with the intent of release….which entails no cuddling and as little contact as possible with the little critters. Of course, when my mother was faced with an orphaned coyote pup, there were no such wildlife rehabilitators around for her to turn to. Even the veterinarian was rather befuddled by how to treat the little guy. Times have changed.
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Yes, times have changed and I think that’s the best way to look at it. I expect your mom thought she was doing the right thing even though these days we know better.
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Fascinating account. As time passes what were once accept as the norm can look totally askew from our new vantage point, yet we hold on to memories that bring us conflicting warm of home. Well done post.
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I guess you are right. Nothing stays the same, including the color of our memories. Thanks for the comment.
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Thumper had already been caught and removed from the wild before we got him. So his fate was precarious before we ever became involved. Mom was trying to do him a favor by keeping him, the guy who picked him up ended up abusing the pup he had because he was scared of him. In the end, we gave him to two college students who claimed to have a fenced place for him. Later when we tried to contact them to see how he was doing their phone numbers and info was defunct.
The red pickup truck with the blue stock racks was bought from the Talbots. The boys made the racks in FFA.
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I might add that before we gave Thumper away I wrote to a lot of zoos trying to give him to them, however, they already had coyotes and did not want one that had been partly socialized.
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So was the story about taking him out to the Talbot’s or wherever just something to prevent me from freaking out? I’ve always wondered if he wasn’t actually euthanized instead of “set free.”
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Ya, okay. So that was the story about Thumper’s demise. I should have read this comment first. I remember who (idiot) stole Thumper and his siblings from their den. It was my best friend’s demented father and I suspect he only grabbed them because he shot the mother and had the tiniest surge of guilt upon finding the pups. Well, I think I heard that his life didn’t go real well after that either. Maybe what goes around….
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I read all these three posts a while back and want to say this for now — I love you.
More when I can!
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Priya, you leave me breathless & speechless! May I reflect back to you what I feel coming to me from so far away? Take good care of yourself.
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I share your feelings, Linda, there’s no glamour to having animals that are not able to live as natural a life as possible…whether it be field or forest.
Humans do some of the most cruel things. I remember giving two little girls baby bunnies for Easter presents. That family knew nothing about baby rabbits. When I think about that, I cringe and beg forgiveness – to the rabbits and to the girls’ mother!
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Yes, Amy, it really hurts when we look back and recognize our own ignorances of the past. We can tell ourselves, “I/we didn’t know any better.” But that doesn’t right the wrong.
I’ll bet those little girls were thrilled with the bunnies. And perhaps they did learn something about caring for animals. As a child, I would have loved to have been given a bunny. The other problem I think we all share, is an infatuation with “babies.” While I never cared for human infants, I’m tremendously drawn to anything with fur or feathers. I see photos of young lion cubs or lynx and crave holding, cuddling, and playing with them. I always have to consciously remind myself of how selfish my desire is.
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Boy are we ever on the same page, Linda! I have one area I don’t have to “fight”…I’m allergic to feathers so have no desire to do a nose plunge on a chick! Any other baby animals – yep…I can smell ’em right through a TV monitor!
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I loved the stories, although they’re sad… but what I liked the most were the pictures. Nothing better than old pictures… I love seeing the ones we have at home of my mom when she was young (she was born in 1955), or my dad’s (1943).
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You know, it’s kind of funny to be of “historical” age. I think whatever period you have lived through seems….well, contemporary….stylishly dated of course, but I realize that audience I am the age of the parents or even grandparents of many in my audience. Pictures of my childhood reflect a time that predated my readers. I know how I feel about images from my own mother’s youth….they looks so “long ago.” And here are my childhood photos, looking so “long ago!” Life is funny.
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I know the feeling, but I always wish I had lived in your young times. The world has always been full of bad things mostly because of humans, but I think it was a lot better the way it was before. How people lived, unlike now. Everything is too modern now. We don’t have a childhood. We don’t have a real life. Everything is stressful. We don’t have time to live our lives. We live to work. We live to eat. We are unhealthy.
Maybe one dayl I’ll learn how to express myself properly, but for now, I hope you can understand what I mean.
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Merry, I understand your longing for times before. But each age has had it’s hurdles to jump, I think. It is so true that the pace of our lives is now hectic and that children are pushed into adulthood (mostly by horrible marketing, in my opinion) and then not expected to act as adults during their teen years. It’s ridiculous. But in former times, kids had to work hard to contribute to the survival of the family. And if we go far enough back in history we see that people didn’t live very long. I would no longer be here to communicate with you! Progress is certainly a double-edged sword.
Philosophically, I think the heart of the problem is not necessarily our “progress” but the fact that we are so many on this finite planet. The only predators we have now, are ourselves through war (ugh) and diseases like cancer. So we coninue to propogate without limits.
Don’t worry about your ability to communicate. I think you do just fine, at least I think I understand what you are saying!..;-) Thanks for visiting and commenting.
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